If you want to do something really european, you probably need to listen to Robbie Williams since he’s huuuuge in europe but nowhere else really. Quite random thing to say, but I’m listening to his “new” album right now, so just a thought I guess.

I went to that SEO symposium yesterday, it was terribly long and exhausting. Can’t say I learned much, seeing how it was pretty superficial, but it’s a start I guess.

The day before yesterday I got my amazon package: Ziggy Stardust + vh1 Storytellers CDs, the Labyrinth DVD and a shirt. I like the sirt a lot, I just wish the seam wasn’t inside out (wasn’t on the picture when I ordered it…) but it’s ok, I know what to do about that.

Tomorrow my sis and I are going to see 2012, looking forward to it, haven’t been to the movies for a while!

Today I went out to buy some cloth for a SEO symposium I have to attend next Thursday. SEO means search engine optimization btw. I found the perfect pants but the top was a drag. Anyway, I don’t really want to go, because I’m not really a SEO expert, but since my boss wants me to take on that responsibility in the future, I’ll be going anyway.

And I fear the small talk. God how I fear the small talk. I royally suck at small talk. I generally suck at anything connected to socializing, really.
I mean, come on, how much of a web 2.0 failure is a blog that doesn’t have comments or a proper blogroll? How is a person that writes the world’s most unsocialable blog going to strike up a conversation with random strangers? Well, she doesn’t, most of the time and anyway, that’s not the point.

I’ll be going to that symposium and hopefully come back a wiser and better person…or whatever that means.

It’s Friday today, which means I’ve now officially spent one week working in the new job! I still don’t hate it, actually I’m pretty happy. I have neither been really bored nor have I been bombed with work. I had no problems with any of the tasks either, so everything is great!

I’ve been thinking all week that I’m rather glad about having been sacked at the old job. If I would still be working there I’d probably be depressed and loathing my life. I did pretty much feel like a failure after they fired me (even though it really wasn’t my fault) and I know I would have never quit myself, no matter how bad I felt, can’t quit, never, but turns out getting fired was really in my favour.

I probably shouldn’t rush all the praise since it really only has been a bit more than a week, but I really notice the difference: getting up in the morning isn’t so hard anymore, I don’t feel like I’m an idiot who can’t do anything anymore and I’m generally in a way better mood.

I am really, really grateful for this, cause these last four or three years have been a big fail party for me. I make it sound funny and I never really showed it much, but I had a really rough time. I wasn’t happy and I was slowly loosing the little amount of self confidence I have. Right now the outlook that something might actually work out for me just makes me really happy, even if it might look like I’m hurrying it.

I can really just say that, even though it might look like a mistake to others, if your job makes you feel like crap all the time, you are probably right giving it up and looking for something else, no matter what others might think. Loosing my job was probably the best thing that happened to me in a long, long time.

Anyway, tomorrow my sis and I are going shopping for winter cloth. I seriously don’t have anything with long sleeves!

On Thursday was my first day on the new job. I like it way more than my old one. I’m working as a web developer for a university now, a way cool university at that. They are a media centred university so they have all these cool courses like music management, computer animation, game design and all those TV and movie making stuff, really pretty cool.

I like what I’m doing, too, it’s more php than anything else, and I’m good at php. Of course I’m only getting smaller things to do at the moment, since I’ve only been there for a few days, but it’s better for the start anyway.

And, and, aaand I can leave on time! That’s not normal in my line of work; overtime (massive overtime) is what’s normal.

Liking the people there more, too. They don’t complain that much, it annoys me if people constantly complain about their work. Or their colleagues or neighbours or anything, really, just don’t complain all the time.

Right now I’m having a temporary desk in one of the other offices because the other guy responsible for internet stuff and me are going to move into a new building soon. The new office will only be 5 minutes from the train station! Currently I need to walk for 15 minutes, which isn’t bad either, but still, only 5 min!

Actually the current office is across the street from the Oktoberfest (the real one, not the weird replicas like they have in other countries). I went there yesterday on my lunch break, but it’s no real fun if you are without your friends. I only had half an hour so I didn’t get very far. Bought some tasty almonds though~

The other day I bought some David Bowie DVDs. I just love his stuff and the guy is just so awesomely eccentric while still keeping a good amount of normalcy, he’s really cool. My sister called me a Bowie fangirl…

Post getting too long, will stop now!

Bye, bye, keyboard with the burn marks. Bye, bye iPod promotional poster that threatened to fall on my head at least twice a week. Bye bye work~

People who follow me on Twitter know this already, but well, gotta say it anyway, right?

So I kinda lost my job. Is “let go” the right phrase in english? Anyway, apparently the company, I was working for, is in quite some trouble, since it wasn’t only me being fired, but half of the employees. I’ve only been there for two month so obviously I’d have to go.
They said I was doing a great job though and that I will be getting a “very good reference” from them.

No panicking or freaking out on my side at all though. Actually I had quite a good day Like I told everyone else: As long as I have food on the table and a roof above my head everything is fine. And I do so I’m fine

Still want to find something new fast though

man I’m tired Basically I’ve been working 10 hours a day since starting work. My contract says 8h, something is definitely wrong with all those extra hours

Well, it’s really just me, I kinda think I’m too new to leave on time. The others are working so much, too, so I’d feel bad if I wasn’t doing overtime.

I wonder if I’ll be able to cope with two years of commuting (between 30 and 50 minutes from home to work) like my sis did and still does, too.

I really should just focus on keeping the job, since I’m of course still on trial (and I will be for another 6 month).

…need to save up, too. and pay back my sister for the money she gave me for tuition and stuff.

I’m just really tired so this doesn’t make sense, really, but I thought I should write like twice a week or something, so yeah, here goes the first one

The street, the company I work for is located in, has 4 H&M shops, 2 New Yorker, Zara, Mango, Esprit, a few luxury shopping centres (as in Dior, Luis Vuitton, etc) and a randomly huge amount of other clothing stores and boutiques.

(…I work for an e-commerce company though, so don’t get the wrong idea.)

Honourable mentions of this week go to: me for learning that red lights mean nothing in some places (if you are pedestrian and pressed for time), two bicyclists who where almost run over by cars (same day, one on my way to work, one from work), police officers looking through some teenagers bags (I think they found some pot) and…I think that’s enough for three days.

Work itself is ok-ish, what I’m doing right now (fixing a support chat) isn’t that much fun, but after that I’ll have nicer things to do. I’ve been doing overtime every day though (I’ve only been working there for three days!), 8 to 6, 10 hours

Last bit of random: my bosses first name would be written like this in Japanese → よしゃ orヨシャ, lol anyone? First letter would be a “J” though, not a “Y”. Ever time someone calls for him, in my head it goes “よしゃッ～～!!” in this very Japanese self-motivational scream kinda way.

Oh, I have a new category now! “work” …have to update my profile, too…

So today was my exam execution. I was very far from confident. Actually I wanted to hang myself or jump out of the window (hang myself out of the window?).

However, for some reason all lights were on green. I think I actually passed. If I did pass that also means I can finally graduate! I really hope this feeling of possibly, maybe having passed the exam isn’t wrong, because then I’d definitely hang myself out of the window, that’s for sure.

…so my laptop broke. Yes, yesterday. I tried to turn it on and there goes…nothing! It worked just fine the day before It’s some hardware failure, so I can’t do anything about it. Off to customer service you go~

However, at some point I think this is good, too. Well, not really good, but it helps me concentrate on my studies. No distractions and a good amount of offline time. Should be healthy

I’m not to bummed about the lost data either. Since I only got the laptop a few month back (yeah, and failing already ) most of the stuff is recent, meaning easily to get back. I lost a new layout I made, which kinda sucks, but I wasn’t really that much into it and I wanted to change it anyway. The coding was so nice and clean though, redoing it will take forever

Well, I’m going back to studying~~~ (I’m trying to stick to my resolution of trying )

I don’t think I ever posted this picture. I think I took it to show how my new (well, not so new anymore) haircut looks like.

It’s snowing right now. For some reason around here it only starts to snow after Christmas, when I’ve got my mind on seasonal change and want it to get warmer again. Just now I thought wow, I only bought one shirt since summer was over!

Right now I’m preparing for three weeks of political/national economics studying, the reason why I couldn’t graduate in summer. Before I can start to really study I always need to prepare. Cleaning my room, my workspace etc.
My new years resolution is kinda to give my best, studying is the first thing to see how long I can keep up.

That said, let’s get back to cleaning and the really trying part, not just the talking