ooooook, I just got knocked out by the amount of offers for web design/web development internships in the job centre of my university. Last time I was looking for something there was nothing, nothing! and now I found a ton of them (there are even some internships at a company my sister bitches about works with on her job).

but today I’m all ARG!!! NOO~!!! real world closing in on me!! so I can’t really look seriously. That also has another reason, a very female reason, so I’m not able to concentrate on anything, especially not finding an internship

did that even make sense??? I’m a bit messed up today I probably should just throw myself in front of the TV and stay there till I snooze off or something…

Strangely the last few days since my last post were filled with activities, so I didn’t really post I still don’t really feel like posting, so once again I’ll leave it at a few pictures:

…more birthday cookies

birthday present from my sister, 365 days of fashion, it’s soooo heave

(wow, it’s quite difficult to listen to web radio and write this here…seiyuu just talk too fast )

my parents gave me a gift card, they are going to pay for 10 visits to the cinema wasn’t that difficult, right? and I’m really happy about it


ah~ I’m tired, gonna go now!

So yesterday I read Ima, ai ni yukimasu. Obviously the english version called Be with you, but anyway.
I basically love all the movies they made out of Takuji Ichikawa books, so I wanted to read one of his novels, and that one was the only one I could get. I totally wasn’t disappointed. I loved it and read it in eight hours I cried, too
The biggest plus it had, before I got far in the story, was already the way it’s written. I really don’t like pages and pages of descriptive writing, so it was really great for me to read, since most of it was conversation. Descriptive writing just bores me, I need people talking. And the story was really great, too

after that I also watched the movie, which I had put off because I wanted to read the book first. Of course I was disappointed. I wonder if the drama series is better?

hm, now gonna go and watch Gossip Girl, after a tear filled episode of One Tree Hill…I think I’m totally pmsing right now I get too emotional watching things

Just now I went to the kitchen to get something to drink. My mum was there, too, and we were chatting normally and then she goes like “what do you want for your birthday???” It was so out of the blue, that I kinda didn’t get what she wanted from me, so all I could do was reply a “what?” Then she starts bitching at me “isn’t there something you want? can’t you just say what you want for once?? your birthday is already on Thursday!”

I really wouldn’t have minded it, but the tone of her voice was really pissing me off, like she was wanting me to take a burden off of her shoulders. As if it was the most bothersome thing to just once a year think of something I could possibly like. I know my parents just want to give me and my sister gifts that we actually like, but if they could just for once show a little creativity it would be great.

Even if I’d have had something in mind, which I really don’t, I wouldn’t have told her after that. I know this is childish and I’m not an angry rebellious teenager anymore, but it just pisses me off that my parents think of it as some kind of annoying task they want to get it over with as fast as possible.
I’d rather not have them give me anything that get something they just bought because they feel like they have to.

That’s why I don’t like to talk about my birthday, actually I always get emo on my birthday, so when I started to ignore the date and really forgot it sometime it was ok for me. Birthdays in this family have never been celebrated big and they mostly were just like any other day. People at school would never congratulate me and even my best friends forgot it at times (obviously not including my sister, because she’s always awesome), so whatever, I stopped caring so long ago, but if something like this happens I just remember that for once I’d like to see that my parents actually know something about me.

I’m not even difficult to buy something for me, I think it’s actually pretty obvious what I like, there are three or four main categories and to filter something out isn’t the biggest difficulty out there. If you can’t find something then just give me a damn gift certificate, even though that’s probably the least thoughtful present ever.

You know, my mum actually set a deadline “I want to know what you want to have by tomorrow morning”. Well, thank you very much. She probably didn’t mean it as bad as it sounds, but still I don’t want to always have to be understanding and not take people by their word. I always think in favour of people, so a lot of times they feel like they don’t need to watch what they say to me, but just because I don’t throw major fits doesn’t mean stuff like that doesn’t hurt me.

ah, whatever, I’m getting sick of this, sorry for venting on you guys m(_ _)m

I’m so weak, I cried a little when watching KIDS but it was a nice movie, of course it couldn’t rise to my expectations, but hey, that’s pretty much impossible for most movies

but I really only cry when something nice and happy happens in movies, I rarely cry when it’s sad. Only happy tears that’s good though, because if you cry because you are sad your eyes will hurt, if you are happy they wont…at least that’s the case when it’s about me…

one of my main thoughts while watching the movie was, if Teppei aka Asato would only take my bruises and stuff he’d already have a full time job but that’s not really related

and what’s this I see in the fridge? Soon to be cake shortage!

haha, everyone is like “OMG, KIDS is up for download!!! ” I’m totally going to join the ranks, too, because obviously I’ve been waiting since forever to watch that movie

And it better be as awesome as everyone expects it to be…well, it already gets points for Tamaki Hiroshi and Teppei as the cast, such a manga couple I mean with Tamaki Hiroshi being all cool and Teppei being the ultimate definition of a cute guy and stuff…and I like over the top Japanese dramatics, too, so yeah, I hope it’s good

So, first of all Happy birthday, Rönni! (now 24) and I’m very sorry for making you treat me to a hot chocolate and Elle magazine, even on your birthday sorry I’m such a leech but you love me anyway, no choice, we are related after all and I’m way too awesome to not be loved

so nothing special was done today, went out for a walk and played around on a playground then some computer time and watching SGA…

I seriously have not the slightest idea what to write today gonna go read magazines instead, that’ll probably be more productive.

…oh, now I remembered something. I’m kinda seriously thinking about having a german blog, because my german is certainly going to waste lately always wanted to have a grouplog, too, but I don’t now enough german people online…goes almost without saying if 100% of your online time is spent on pages in english language anyway, anyway, we’ll see about all that